I hadn’t planned on blogging today, but God had other plans.
I crawled into the corner of my war room this morning to spend time with the Father, read His word, and pray. When I began writing in my prayer journal, I decided to play some worship music from my phone. I chose one of Misty Edwards’ albums that I hadn’t heard, and streamed it from my Amazon music app.
Let me back up. Sometime last month during worship on a Sunday I received a vision of members of my church (not particular people, but everyone) coming out of a dark forest into a beautiful garden full of color and light. There was a look of awe on everyone’s face as they stepped into the garden in God’s presence.
Fast forward to that Wednesday night service. My church was in the middle of a 40 day fast and we were leading prophetic worship on Wednesdays during the fast. There came a time where pastor had the worship team come down and line up along with others to receive prayer and be anointed with oil. As pastor prayed over me I suddenly saw myself standing in the garden—the very garden I had just spoke about and prayed us into on Sunday. A peace like no other had come over me. I couldn’t stop smiling, crying, laughing, and saying, “I’m in the garden!” Never before had I experienced anything like that. Isn’t our Father amazing?!
I continued to walk in that peace for awhile, but as with many things in life, I began to lose sight of it.
I have been seeking the Lord for answers on several things for awhile now, but I haven’t been able to hear Him. I spend time in my war room daily. I fasted 40 days. I meditate on His word. I read spiritual books. Why am I not hearing Him? I recall last year when I got still before Him and a download of answers came on all of the things I was seeking answers on. Why can’t I have that happen again?
This morning I wrote in my prayer journal and prayed day 27 of the 40 Days of Praying God’s Promises challenge I am doing. Then I poured out my heart to my Daddy. I recalled a devotional day I wrote last week on the verse, “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you” (James 4:8). Suddenly my heart cried out, and I penned the words, “I am seeking You Father. Why am I not finding You?” Right after this I wrote/prayed my promise for the day: You delight to help me today. No sooner had I affirmed that I believe that, and He met me right where I was and spoke to my heart.
I found myself in a torrent of tears as His love washed over me through a song that came on. It is “Companion” by Misty Edwards. How perfect.
I want to be your companion
Just like in the garden
So if you’re searching for Eden
Find it in Me
Find it in MeYou are as close as conversation
You are so close to Me
You are as near as turned attention
You are so near to Me—Misty Edwards
It was as if He was singing directly to me. How personal He is! He’s not so far away, but we often think He is. He is crying out that He wants to be our companion just like in the garden! We have direct access to the garden through Him! He is as close as conversation! How glorious!
May this song minister to you today just as it has to me. I don’t believe in coincidences. I don’t believe that it was by chance that I decided to put on some music while writing this morning in my war room, or that I decided to search Misty Edwards and listen to her latest album that I had only heard one song from. I don’t believe it was coincidence that it was a song about the garden, and about Him being right there, when I had just asked where He was. He is such a gentleman.
(She has another song called “Garden” that is great as well!)